Oh Time, My Old Friend

I love how time gradually erased you from my memory. First to drift away was your features. The mental image of your face started to fade. I forgot how exactly your eyes look like, even the curve of your lips when you smile. Then, your voice came next. This was a tricky one because I loved your voice. The way you sing to me, how sweet it was when you call my name. The exact timbre of your laugh. I thought I would keep all of it in my memory. But time was a good friend. He came and took away all these bits and pieces from my mind. Time knows all they would do is hurt me.

Last was how you made me feel. I almost didn’t want Time to take it. Because you made me feel special, you made me feel loved. You made me feel like I can do anything. But those positive feelings tie up to what came next. Towards the end you made me feel insufficient. Your condescending words made me feel inferior. These feelings were too strong, it was almost impossible to take away, but at some point, almost too subtle to notice, they were gone. But feelings leave scars. No amount of time can erase those. Scars left by emotions are engraved lessons.

Oh darling, you were so, so wrong for me. It feels so good to be rid of you; mind, soul and body.


Touch the Sky

The song “Touch the Sky” has been stuck in my head for about 3 weeks now. And because of this song, I often find myself looking up at the sky these days. With this newly formed habit, I start to find out more reasons to worship God.

See, if we just let go of our self-centeredness even for just a couple of seconds, we’d realize how great our God is. Look up at the sky. Its span is unfathomable and yet no one and nothing is beyond God’s reach. Can you imagine how God takes care of not only you, but all of his creation? Difficult to understand, but that’s just God’s grace at work. Look up at the sky once more. Not only does God take care of all of us, he also paints a different picture of the heavens everyday for us to enjoy.

As I sing the lyrics of “Touch the Sky” over and over again, the deeper its message sinks in.

I found my life when I laid it down
Upward falling, spirit soaring
I touch the sky when my knees hit the ground

Couldn’t have said it better. It is only through God that we find out who we truly are and what life really is all about. Laying down our life means surrendering; letting go and letting God use us for his purposes. As we kneel before God and let him write the story of our lives, everything will suddenly make sense and life will be full of meaning. We’ll touch the sky. The path we should take will automatically appear before us if we give the steering wheel to God.

You traded heaven to have me again

Who am I, Lord? That you’ll lay down your life in order to save me? I am no one. I am wretched and a sinner. I deserve death and suffering yet you still traded heaven, you traded a perfect life which you deserve for me to be able to join you someday. Your love is unfathomable, Lord.

Find me here at your feet again
Everything I am, reaching out, I surrender

For me, these lines tell us that we often go astray. There will always be times when we feel weak and succumb to temptation. This is when God calls out to us again. He pulls us, and we’ll find ourselves at his feet again; begging for forgiveness which we don’t deserve yet he gives away easily anyway out of love. Because of this grace, we vow to reach out, keep close and surrender everything to him.

Even the whole expanse of the sky cannot cover how much your grace and love abounds in us. Thank you, Lord.